` vindicated

meet lisbeth

2011-11-25T15:23:00.006+08:00

A couple of days ago some images of actress Rooney Mara as Lisbeth Salander in David Fincher’s adaptation of The Girl With the Dragon Tattoo surfaced online

In the books, Salander is described as being tiny in size, almost anorexic thin, covered in tattoos and piercings. She wears the blank expression of a person who is introverted to the point of almost being autistic, while her eyes contain a wildfire intelligence and violent spirit that cannot be fathomed by most, let alone broken by any. Looking at these photos, not only does Mara embody the character (especially the stare in that cigarette image), I dare say that I have an easier time buying her as the iconic Swedish hacker than I did Rapace – who is actually Swedish!

(source :http://screenrant.com/girl-with-the-dragon-tattoo-rooney-mara-lisbeth-salander-kofi-96208/)

tom hansen vs hesher

2011-11-12T09:00:00.005+08:00

VS

hesher was a 360 degrees spin from tom hansen. tom was my boy next door who smiles at everyone , has a positive aura and listens to radiohead. Hesher is the window smashing, fire-loving , metallica-listening and a second nature cuss(er). i love joseph though.

paolo

2011-11-03T12:38:00.000+08:00

rediscovering paolo nutini

doodles

2011-08-29T12:15:00.003+08:00

earcandy101.jessie j - do it like a dude. who's laughing now.- the videos are the shiz!
the pierces. must download the album thirteen tales of love and revenge.
who sang i just came to say hello?

someone like you.

2011-08-29T11:48:00.003+08:00

why oh why.

I'd hate to turn up out of the blue..
never mind i'd find someone like you.

We could go back to the time when we first met: a man in emotional tatters over someone who had left him, and a woman madly in love with her neighbor. I could repeat what I said to you once: " I'm going to fight to the bitter end". Well I fought and lost, and now I'll just have to lick my wounds and leave.

I fought and lost as well. I'm not trying to sew up what was rent. Like you, I want to fight to the bitter end.

I suffer everyday, did you know that? I've been suffering for months now trying to show how much I love you, how things are only important when you're by my side. but now , whether I suffer or not, I've decided that enough is enough . It's over. I'm tired. After that night in Zagreb , I lowered my guard and said to myself : If the blow comes , it comes. It can lay me out on the canvas and it can knock me out of the cold but one day I'll recover.

You'll find someone else.

Of course I will. I'm young,pretty, intelligent and desirable, but will I experience all the things i experienced with you?

you'll experience different emotions and , you know, although you may not believe it , I loved you while we were together .

I'm sure you did , but that doesn't make it any less painful.

here we go again.

when you're 15

2011-08-29T11:36:00.002+08:00

i am trying to contain stress and anger and the need to get some decent sleep all at once. and oh the need to pee too. i do not want to be angry and sad. i suddenly miss home.
it's time . Do you remember that line?

on a monday

2011-06-28T10:55:00.003+08:00

i miss a lot of people today. I am still in the net cafe transferring some pictures. this has been a great monday . considering our #s.

Team Good job!

DEan, julian kyle, chi, ninagirl, christa, diana ,benson, aries, zac, glenn,gian

of rains and mondays

2011-06-27T11:39:00.003+08:00

“You say that you love rain, but you open your umbrella when it rains. You say that you love the sun, but you find a shadow spot when the sun shines. You say that you love the wind, but you close your windows when wind blows. This is why I am afraid, you say that you love me too.”
-William Shakespeare

this day in pictures

2011-06-22T10:47:00.007+08:00

twilight series. chucks in prc. torres st sans gimik. labangon summer fire and smoke. bunso. wants to be like manny.

COCO + iRISH dANcE + GLEE

2011-06-21T12:23:00.003+08:00

While watching ‘The Glee Project,’ I heard Ryan Murphy, the producer, say he was thinking of doing an Irish dance-inspired episode. Um, poetry to my ears!!! Can someone please tell him I’m his girl? Huffington Post already spread the word but I need you guys to REBLOG!!

In other Irish dance news, tonight I’m going to the New York premier of JIG the movie! Remember the little promo I did last week? Very excited! Go HERE for more info.\

Source: oh-s0-coco,tumblr.com

what i just need.

2011-06-21T12:06:00.001+08:00

moden de . womb. five years. muse . use somebody . jar of hearts.

16 cabinets and 4 empty spaces

2011-06-21T10:27:00.002+08:00

Sixteen things that should've made me feel happy and better on a Monday. I cannot enumerate them . needless to say this Monday came by fast, dragging in between minutes in an unnoticeable way . then came Tuesday.
I would never really know you. You would always play safe. And I .. on my stupidity would ask you questions on a Sunday . then there were those boxed,stolen, short lived moments where'd I ask you questions but all you would give are hints or Not even hints.

kaya mo pala akong tiisin. Let me stare at those 16 cabinets then. Let me recall their detail their edges ..smooth hard and rough all at the sametime. Let me have mental pictures of 16 cabinets in my mind . Kaya mo pala akong tiisin.

I am angrier now. four. four empty spaces which I intend to fill with that one fateful weekend.

16 cabinets and 4 empty spaces, are you happy now?

'vindicated

2011-06-19T13:23:00.001+08:00

i am selfish. i am wrong. i swear i'm right . swore i know it along.
and i am flawed but i am cleaning up so well. i am seeing in me now the things you swore you saw yourself.

on a sunday

2011-06-19T11:15:00.003+08:00

My body craved for sleep. I slept at 12 noon -woke up at 745pm - slept at 11 pm agaian and woke up at 5 am on a Sunday. The overtime shcedule really got the best of my bidy clock.

So the hopeful me .

1. learn the kings of leon song but download it first
2. letters to FS
3. to write and read more
4. become better and stronger and not be stressed out by OT
5. be mindful of sleep

this is unfinished

summer

2011-05-23T10:52:00.001+08:00

basketball on sunday afternoons.
beach.
fun.

yes i need to get away . gotta get away. I just went to the beach.

early morning view

2011-05-01T01:54:00.001+08:00

they hurt and im seeing red

2011-04-27T13:55:00.001+08:00

i have been making these cute little things called garlands. my eyes hurt i need to sleep and be more of myself later.
i tired but working. to quote.
im young and im underpaid. HA!

pricetag,f***in perfect and yes geek in the pink. are you? do you?

this heartfelt leap

2011-04-17T05:39:00.002+08:00

and i surrender. i felt bad for doing it. for letting it go on for a while. this is not supposed to be. i surrender.

ten thoughts at the same time

2011-04-14T12:28:00.002+08:00

i have been running ten thoughts at the same time most of the time . run. i need to run and get my self those nice sturdy nifty running shoes. the guitar needs fine tuning. and so does the trick to do it. will need to dip self to the apparition influence birth or maybe under the southern lights. more of Florence and the machine. Daria quotes. will need to extend patience and be more assertive. changes changes lot of changes. sleep is important. and to be not envious of coupledom. i will color my nails black and will read my Daria quotes. oh i said that already. now would you want some coffee? she said she doesnt really need it . at 11 pm she got so mad and calm at the same time. now do we even say ehllo ?it was crazy for me to thinkt hat you are my kind. no you're not. i will have to make a tribute to that.

minerva. ten . did you count?

we kept it hidden

2011-04-12T13:34:00.001+08:00

i see your face your face so tired and weary from battles fought lost and won.. you take your chances fuck the consequence dive right in with no regrets, there's no point to keep your head faced down when all we see and know and feel is temporary, spread your arms and keep your head held high good things are better taken in the less you notice. witness to a city that sleeps where sins are made and buried doesn't matter how deep or hidden its always always there, hold back the tears*

I guess this is how I am today. This is to sum how I feel.

naturally

2011-03-14T03:36:00.002+08:00

..she got tired from working 16 hours a day. then she went out on the streets not knowing what time it was . She swore to herself she would never eat those particular street foods because they make the stomach go crazy. But she ate there anyway.

..she went home feeling stressed and relived, sleep and hungry at the same time. She ate noodles, really good saucy noodles they were. Not stir fried . She drank coke as opposed to what she has been telling herself.

... she was reminded of some of the quietest Saturdays she has had. They were quiet and peaceful . How long ago has it been?

...on a Sunday she listened to four songs to find where she was . People would tell her she was always so 'spot-on'. she wouldn't really understand what they mean.she had a sense of what it was but still uncertain of what the meaning really was. Going back to the songs, the Dog Days Are over /Florence and the Machine, Crazy /Gnarls Barkeley,Soldier/Destiny's Child and You don't Know Me/ Jann Arden from My Bestffriend's wedding.

..on weekends like these she cannot fall asleep. And has gone a bit mad over lines.

absent indefinitely

2011-02-12T11:11:00.000+08:00

i am not tired, more of disillusioned.

relief

2010-12-27T17:49:00.003+08:00

maybe 45 minutes after the floor and all that was wet dried up my housemates arrived..she's now singing *videoke mag isa* and everything seems well. i am glad.

the day after christmas

2010-12-27T17:37:00.002+08:00

..found me washing 6 pairs of jeans. next door noisy girl neighbor is back. ugh she annoys me like hell.and and i have been wanting to eat the decadence cake left on the fridge after laundry but oi.. the water from my laundry session spilled on the floor like flood without me noticing it. i was partly terrified because it has reached the bottom part of our electrical socket extension. i dont want anyone getting electrocuted by accident in this dwelling. and so i ended up mopping the floor and no i didnt eat cake. ugh.

was able to finish neverwhere by neil gaiman.fabulous.
and also fragile things.
currently reading nick hornby's how to be good.

men who matters

2010-12-24T00:09:00.005+08:00

holdup victim in gizmo
ramblings
cebu's very own

radioactive key
did not take it off *wink*

delete

2010-12-23T23:58:00.001+08:00

what a good feeling it is to free your memory of old things that dont matter anymore.

in pictures

2010-12-21T00:23:00.006+08:00

thank you.

just turned 26

let's face it

if you are

hold the locks

.

2010-12-20T17:15:00.000+08:00

think littlest things by lily allen and nicest thing by kate nash. NOT.

well said

2010-11-30T18:29:00.000+08:00

You Who Never Arrived
Rainer Maria Rilke

You who never arrived
in my arms, Beloved, who were lost
from the start,
I don't even know what songs
would please you. I have given up trying
to recognize you in the surging wave of the next
moment. All the immense
images in me-- the far-off, deeply-felt landscape,
cities, towers, and bridges, and unsuspected
turns in the path,
and those powerful lands that were once
pulsing with the life of the gods-
all rise within me to mean
you, who forever elude me.

You, Beloved, who are all
the gardens I have ever gazed at,
longing. An open window
in a country house--, and you almost
stepped out, pensive, to meet me.
Streets that I chanced upon,--
you had just walked down them and vanished.
And sometimes, in a shop, the mirrors
were still dizzy with your presence and, startled,
gave back my too-sudden image. Who knows?
perhaps the same bird echoed through both of us
yesterday, seperate, in the evening...

Translated by Stephen Mitchell

NU 107 FM

2010-11-07T23:33:00.001+08:00

NU107 is DWNUFM, 107.5
Megahertz in Pasig…A
loud and proud member
of the KBP…You’re locked
in to the HOme of
...NuRock…

. . . is n0w signing 0ff.

'bayang magiliw, perlas ng si. . . . . .

exactly

2010-11-06T02:57:00.000+08:00

You see, to me and countless others of my generation, no other station mattered. Our analog radio tuner dials were stuck on that last station to the right - DWNU 107.5. It dared play what no other station would..They might go off the air but they would always remain in the collective consciousness of Pinoy rock fans - to join other revered institutions such as LA Rock 105.9 and Club Dredd.

NU 107 will soon be history, but its spirit of rebellion will live on. As the godfather of grunge bluntly put it, "Rock and roll is here to stay".
source www.blitzkidbop.blogspot.com

NU107 THE LAST GOODBYE

2010-11-06T02:27:00.002+08:00

After 23 years of existence Nu 107 the home of NU rock will be signing off.
i have no deep words to , only this that NU 107 has become a part of our lives . I will miss it.And NU 107 DAGHANG SALAMAT.

sunday 7:09 pm

2010-10-31T19:03:00.004+08:00

and so i finished my 'proctor' stint at CNU earlier. there were random surprises that i found out today. *this is bound to be magulo*

1. one of the examinees is a comeback kid. who was kid A's batchmate way back in 2005. she said " ah taga usep ka? naa man pud ko sabay sa una taga usep..basta bright na sya nya GWAPO, first batch man daw to sila na taga USEP na nag perc". i think i knew who she was referring to. and when i said the name she said YES with a hint of a coy smile. ha!

2. that one of the examinees in the room that i proctored (?) in is also a deltan, his name is cyrus, he was a freshman and i was in fifth year way back college days.and much to my surprise one of my batchmates[ in deltans] is also here in Cebu. That batchmate was also a percian and left some of his belongings in my former abode in labangon .. ah so that explains the reason why early october i received an sms from this batchmate asking if i still have some of his stuff..well im no longer a labangon resident...and its just weird that ..oh never mind

Things shOULD STOP BEING WEIRD.

cyrus gave me a deltans key chain from last year's anniversary [souveneir most likely]

3. 3 pm rained hard. the tarpaulin that had marian and dingdong's faces for a brandy was washed up by the rain.some of the examinees got a bot distracted by the wind. one xaminee really looks like someone i know. someone that i do not want to know anymore. haha.

the proctor-preboard experience feels good.

after the exam i went to a japanese kiosk and had myself a seafood hotpot.

it rained hard today.

*while typing this am watching antm cycle 15 on youtube*

today.

2010-10-30T19:03:00.002+08:00

today i woke up early. i had pancake breakfast at mcdonalds plus coke.-->totally irrelevant.

paid homage to PERCDC *percian by heart* by being one of their proctors for their preboard (mock board). it was a good feeling to be back, i mean not in the percdc center/office per se but to be in the 'board exam feel'.

i had a long day but a prodcutive one. i had thoughts of these post recalling the oct 2009 preboard of percdc which was/is very significant for me but i lost the thought.

nonetheless to you that i shared this significance with ...cheers!

ajar

2010-10-22T22:59:00.004+08:00

let the right one in.

i am half through reading the book. i have stopped reading it because i have this sickening feeling after reading some parts. i like vampire stories. but it's different when you read it at night. plus the Hakan character is quite disturbing. and the characters in the book are depressing.

i dont know if i will be able to finish it.

Oskar and Eli. In very different ways, they were both victims. Which is why, against the odds, they became friends. And how they came to depend on one another, for life itself. Oskar is a 12 year old boy living with his mother on a dreary housing estate at the city's edge. He dreams about his absentee father, gets bullied at school, and wets himself when he's frightened. Eli is the young girl who moves in next door. She doesn't go to school and never leaves the flat by day. She is a 200 year old vampire, forever frozen in childhood, and condemned to live on a diet of fresh blood (http://www.booklore.co.uk/PastReviews/LindqvistJohnAjvide/LetTheRightOneIn/LetTheRightOneInReview.htm)

lock and load baby lets go

2010-10-22T19:29:00.008+08:00

i think season one just ended today. they are showing this one ABC 5 every 2 pm from mondays to fridays. this has been part of my routine and i will certainly miss watching this. i mean i dont watch it religiously though (because even if I dont watch it by the everyday the "ang nakaraan " abangan " will give you and idea of what will happened before and the next day) but i will miss watching it.

because i saw him in this film in my ex roomie's stack of dvds.

onefifteenAM

2010-10-14T00:52:00.002+08:00

the past two days have been stressful.im not literally doing anything,that maybe part of my stress. i don't want stress at all. i sleep late because i am rather distracted by things.very disturbing things.
i wake up at 11 am-ish .eat my brunch. do some cleaning and laundry.watch afternoon TV sleep some..when i wake uo it;s already early evening.. i watch the vening news while helping out with the cooking..
routine.

i hope people learn to be honest and realistic.
i hope that we learn to respect other people. how do we show respect?
i hope i am able to get back on track whatever may happen in the coming days.
i hope to become a better person, a better daughter,friend and partner.
i hope for all of us.

o.D

2010-10-09T04:13:00.003+08:00

i hate you. there are so many reasons to hate you. for leaving me out in the cold.i hate you for the false hope. i hate you for making me believe that everything will work out fine. i hate you for betraying me. the trust that i have given you. i hate you for not apologizing. for not recognizing my pain, the pain that you have put me through. i hate you for acting like everything is okay but it is not. i hate you for all the sleep deprived nights.i hate you for forgetting.

swiss army romance

2010-10-09T02:54:00.002+08:00

just because i clearly remember the lines sleep with all the lights on you're not so happy you're not secure.

it's 4:25 am and i am not in the mood to sleep*

since the year started my life has taken its unusual turn. i have made tough personal decisions last year, and gambled but in the end it was worth it.

i have already quit two jobs within the year. i didn't like my boss, the job was making me miserable and unhappy.

right now i just want to get some sleep and kick off the blues.

a few hours ago i felt really angry. every time i think about that incident all i can ever think of is being angry and ....im just like everyone.

i am not making sense. i know.

vindicated

2010-09-08T20:13:00.003+08:00

august has always been a challenging month for me . as always .
it has come and gone in days . i remember only getting two restdays for that month. and getting sick 5 days, so that means 5 days of now work.

and i turned a year older with much rage(almost) and a bit of sadness and frustration. amidst the major major on the day of my birthday and the quirino grandstand hostage crisis..

Better and vindicated

* i wanted to write about happier things but as of now...*

him and her

2010-08-08T01:34:00.001+08:00

myrene

2010-08-08T01:05:00.000+08:00

bass player. i heart.

this is.

2010-08-08T00:30:00.001+08:00

Disoriented . That’s how I’ve been feeling every first half of the day, the next half I’m either sleepy or tired. It’s quite a bad combination I must say. I am greeted by problems in the line first five minutes and then I have to do a lot of things. I am not complaining, or maybe I am. After all this is what I wanted or so I thought.* listening to Avril’s old songs;quite strangely though*
Most of the people that I work with think that I will not survive because I am an ex-bpo person. The judgement really sucks.
There was the gossip. It’s been a month the tsismis has already come and gone but it’s a challenge to reach out to people when they already a preconceived notion that you are like this and that..
But I will be fine. Despite the stress.
I will be leaving my dragon in Logarta for now. I’ll have to bound it in strong metal chains so that it will not get loose and follow me at work. Not unless I want most of the people that I work with to burn.

Simple pleasures
1 . late night blahs before sleeping. Thank you for the conversations and for making me laugh after a long tiring day. Naa lang ko diri.
2 eight to nine knives courtesy of my housemate who cooks such unassuming viands for dinner. I give you 11 knives. To T1 for cooking breakfast,T2 (psssst) for our catching up time.
3 random conversations with D and E about things and everything Cebu ,Davao,logarta , my work rants and raves, showbiz and killers
4 to the girls that I work with.i know we will get better at what we do. Aja aja fighting!
5 to the great friends I have I love you all and I miss you .
Lime- I haven’t updated you with what’s been up with me. I miss your wisdom/ 9- thank you. I know maski la ta nagakita in spirit. I know cloud 9 . I miss you/ Twin- thank you sa encouragement and support . thank you chel./ glaiza- we will pursue our dreams. Ikaw ang isa sa pinakakugihan na tao na akong nailhan . aja!/KA- pag amping pirmi. Mingaw na ko nmu. Kita baya jud nag partner sa mga krimen . I miss using our vocabulary na kita ra makasabot/FS- yes./Amanda- galit ka ba sa akin? Namimiss na kita/Lukas – if you only know. /kidA- thank you. Ikaw lang jud ang isa sa akong masumbungan. My gawd im glad you have a big appetite not a big mouth.
6. coke. Nothing beats coke.

tired but happy feet

2010-07-25T01:55:00.001+08:00

you are missed.

this ive been wanting to say / the arctic monkeys post /Whatever People Say I Am, That's What I'm Not

2010-07-25T01:07:00.004+08:00

it has been 25 days since i have been working in my new job. it's a far shift from what i used to do. meeting new people and dealing with different kinds of people. well i have been there ..but this one is a bit..uhhmmm..unexpected?

you see the previous work that i did was different. i was in the office. i say hello and then thank you, but this one now is what i am supposed to do or part of what i am supposed to do after college.

so there on the 1st day of our work..well it was still the orientation, everything went okay. and there we were endorsed on the production floor and we were supposed to observe and ask questions to get a better view of what we were supposed to do.

the 1st week went well, well at least that's what i thought. i made some new acquaintances, these new acquaintaces would ask me questions and id answer them honestly. eveything was going well.. until July 10 Saturday. one of the new acquaintances DL told me this ..

anyways i have decided that i will not post those events. anyway they have come to passed and whatever those things that we supposedly said are NOT true. i now know how it feels to be misunderstood in terms of context and tone. well it's not my tone ..or maybe so.

and as for my feelings ..yes i got hurt a bit . but i am now fine. i will fight fire with fire anyways and Whatever People Say I Am, That's What I'm Not

unfinished thoughts

2010-07-25T00:27:00.000+08:00

I do not understand why some people are so mean. Seriously . But people are just people shouldn’t make you nervous. There are quite a number of lessons that I have learned lately.
1.It is sometimes best to keep your mouth shut. Over the years I have learned to be assertive and I do know when to assert my rights but as I have learned over the past three weeks it is for the best to keep your mouth shut. Shhh.Quite.
2.That people will hear things and will immediately believe what they hear...

and to you

2010-07-24T00:09:00.002+08:00

yes , you just get me like i've never been gotten before.

random

2010-07-23T23:55:00.002+08:00

it rained really hard. Friday night found me in a small cramped videoke place in llc. oh.
some people are just mean and the best thing to do about them is to ignore them and pretend that they don't exist.
there's a person that i work with that really gets in my nerves. that person gets very very selfish sometimes. ugh.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY JOHN BENGAN!

and as for life in production..it's like a b*tch you gotta learn how to **** it.

i really need to sleep

putik

2010-07-10T23:06:00.002+08:00

Putik By Sandwich

Sa ibabaw ng bubong
Nakita kong nagunaw ang mundo

Pumasok sa pinto ng hindi inimbita (putik)
Kailangan mo ng lamesa, tv, radyo at sofa (putik)
Alaala sa mga larawan (putik)
Naglaho nang hindi nagpapaalam (putik)

Umakyat sa hagdan at sinakop ang silid (putik)
Kinain ang kama, tukador, kabinet, sahig (putik)
Ubos ang mga sapatos at damit (putik)
Libro, kompyuter, cd, gitarang di maipagpapalit

Sa ibabaw ng bubong
Nakita kong nagunaw ang mundo
Sa ibabaw ng bubong
Nakita kong nagunaw ang mundo

Sa labas rumaragasang ilog ang kalsada (putik)
Inanod ang palengke at lahat ng paninda (putik)
Nagpatong-patongg trak, jepney at kotse (putik)
Buong bayan nagkulay tsokolate (putik)

Pagpalain ang mga nakaisip mangsagip
Inalay ang sarili at lumusob sa panganib
Buti na lang naiakyat si lola
Ngunit di kasing palad ang kapitbahay niya

Sa ibabaw ng bubong
Nakita kong nagunaw ang mundo
Sa ibabaw ng bubong
Nakita kong nagunaw ang mundo

Nagunaw ang mundo

i love sandwich. today wasn't such a good day. and this is what i want to say to a lot of people.i mean the title of this song.

and .. to the person who said ' gimingaw na ko nimo!' same here. i appreciate the "!" in your sms. ^^

in pictures:m_R

2010-07-02T23:41:00.000+08:00

what happened last saturday

2010-06-27T19:18:00.002+08:00

i didnt expect things as they turned out on a Saturdays night,. i was anxious a bit wary and a lot upset. i am just glad it was over.

i dont like comedy bars. the jokes are not funny. i found myself on a comedy bar called 22nd street in cebu . the gay comedians were yes a bit funny but the jokes are so green and their mouths are filthy.tsk. not my cup of tea after all.

and if you ask me why i was there it was becasue i was babysitting my SOs 19 year old sister.

she's a genius!

2010-06-23T19:42:00.001+08:00

broken

2010-06-23T17:48:00.006+08:00

I am broken.

What is left of me is pieces. Pieces of something that once was whole.

Broken.

* this was the 2nd time this fan fell/was able to revive it thank you mighty bang.i felt really frustrated when it happened. it was hit by the broken cabinet door and it happened on a very very warm night. we used to believe it was karma.but things have been together now.

good and happy

2010-06-22T17:48:00.004+08:00

good and happy are two different things.when you say you're good it doesn't entirely mean that you're happy. but if you're happy..are you good? i'm not making sense eh?
today i would like to think of good things.

photocopied some things . well that good .why? because i was able to get out of the apartment. i went near UV and had some papers photocopied. the ate who photocopied my papers was the same ate who photocopied my review notes way back in october 2009. it was just nostalgic to see her.

i will get some early sleep that should make me feel good. i have always felt good drinking coke, though i know too much coke is baaaaaad.. yesterday i drank 3 coke sakto bottles, 1 8 ounce bottle of coke and 1 coke in can. i felt good.

i love this picture. i know right? i have seen only hye park once in a magazine cover. it was just a small picture of her but i was not able to forget her name. and man she's tall. and this one is Rain. i did watch full house in two sittings during my review.

today i fed henry. the cat opens up its mouth and meows really loud. i like it.
..and no i ddint feed henry leaves..this is an old picture.. i am yet to upload henry's pic nibbling on a foil.

and she's really beautiful.

reminds me of a dashboard confessional song

2010-06-21T21:15:00.005+08:00

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2010-06-21T20:27:00.002+08:00

i will feed henry [ my occasional pet on an everyday basis]. i will not buy unecessary things. i will have my list ready. i will not be nice to PEOPLE WHO DOESN'T DESERVE IT A BIT.i will read more.i will put lip balm. drink my vitamins.

old and ripped

2010-06-21T18:14:00.002+08:00

my black nail polish is chipped .i was looking for a decent pen to help me out in writing a list when a came upon a torn sheet of paper . I read this from Zahir and when i read it was as if it was a dialogue that i had so many moons ago..

We could go back to the time when we first met: a man in emotional tatters over someone who had left him, and a woman madly in love with her neighbor. I could repeat what I said to you once: " I'm going to fight to the bitter end". Well I fought and lost, and now I'll just have to lick my wounds and leave.

I fought and lost as well. I'm not trying to sew up what was rent. Like you, I want to fight to the bitter end.

I suffer everyday, did you know that? I've been suffering for months now trying to show how much I love you, how things are only important when you're by my side. but now , whether I suffer or not, I've decided that enough is enough . It's over. I'm tired. After that night in Zagreb , I lowered my guard and said to myself : If the blow comes , it comes. It can lay me out on the canvas and it can knock me out of the cold but one day I'll recover.

You'll find someone else.

Of course I will. I'm young,pretty, intelligent and desirable, but will I experience all the things i experienced with you?

you'll experience different emotions and , you know, although you may not believe it , I loved you while we were together .

I'm sure you did , but that doesn't make it any less painful.

** we said it in silence. did you hear me even when the fires faded?**

malaya

2010-06-14T10:38:00.001+08:00

naroon by Yano

Liparin mo sa ulap
Sisirin mo sa dagat
Hukayin mo sa lupa
Baka naroon ang kalayaan

Tayo ba’y mga tau-tauhan
Sa isang dulang pangkalawakan
Mga anino ng nakaraan
Alipin ng kinabukasan

Liparin mo sa ulap
Sisirin mo sa dagat
Hukayin mo sa lupa
Baka naroon ang kalayaan

Tayo ba’y mga saranggola
Na nilalaro sa himpapawid
Makakawala ba sa pagkakatali
Kapag pinutol mo ang pisi

Liparin mo sa ulap
Sisirin mo sa dagat
Hukayin mo sa lupa
Baka naroon ang kalayaan

Tayo ba’y mga sunud-sunuran
Sa takda ng ating kapalaran
Kaya ba nating paglabanan
Mga sumpa ng kasaysayan

Liparin mo sa ulap
Sisirin mo sa dagat
Hukayin mo sa lupa
Baka naroon ang kalayaan

Independence day
by Barbie's Cradle

If you disagree, I’d choose you over me
This way I’d keep the peace
Keep me inside, don’t turn off the light
‘Cause without you how can I breathe

Independence day is not for me
When I’m bound to you I feel so free

Pretend that I’m a deer, travelling any year
I need you desperately
Night and day I roam you need to take me home
‘Cause on my own I can’t see, yeah

Independence day is not for me
When I’m bound to you I feel so free
Independence day is not for me
When I’m bound to you I feel so free

Here are all my keys, enter as you please
North, south, west, center, east
Teach me not to hide in the deadly walls of pride
Speak to me gently

Independence day is not for me
When I’m bound to you I feel so free
Independence day is not for me
When I’m bound to you I feel so free

Declare independence
by Bjork

Declare independence!
Don't let them do that to you!
Declare independence!
Don't let them do that to you!

Declare independence!
Don't let them do that to you!
Declare independence!
Don't let them do that to you!

Start your own currency!
Make your own stamp
Protect your language

Declare independence
Don't let them do that to you
Declare independence
Don't let them do that to you

[x4] Make your own flag!

[x6] Raise your flag!

Declare independence!
Don't let them do that to you!
Declare independence!
Don't let them do that to you!

Damn colonists
Ignore their patronizing
Tear off their blindfolds
Open their eyes

Declare independence!
Don't let them do that to you!
Declare independence!
Don't let them do that to you!

With a flag and a trumpet
Go to the top of your highest mountain!

[x6] Raise your flag!

Declare independence!
Don't let them do that to you!
Declare independence!
Don't let them do that to you!

Raise the flag!

rewind

2010-06-14T08:59:00.003+08:00

last year's June was hectic. with the schedule changes and changes.i r-read my last year's blog entry and man i was in school back then which is quite funny because tomorrow will be the the opening of the semester for this year. I want to do a lot of things this year, for starters I'd like to do something with my hair,maybe cut it [safest], perm it[?] or sport a shaven head or Mohawk [ but that would be too drastic].

i admit that i am a bit ... er.. papansin lately . I cannot really detect where this behavior is coming from. alright , alright . Papansin in avery subtle way .

There are things that I have done for the past weeks that were quite unlikely of me but I did it anyway. I feel bad for doing it and to those people that got affected with that spur decision I apologize for any inconvenience.

I want to do more.Half of the year ha gone by . I'm back to square one. I will rad more books, draw , write random and take more pictures { with the hard earned lesson in mind about storage devices}.

June, the enemies of June are walking around the surface,they're fighting for you ,the enemies of june is in you.

move along

2010-06-05T16:46:00.000+08:00

when things go wrong we move along.

hEnry

2010-05-30T10:00:00.002+08:00

henry my *occasional pet*

henry used to be called michelle. i told the neighbors/some people in the bldg not to call henry that name .. because it's my name. a girl's name and henry is a male cat.henry is my occasional pet [ when i feel like it . henry is very skinny AND has a big mouth and makes those very strecthed meow sounds.
henry doesn't like to eat [ maybe because i don't feed it much]. it likes to curl on my house mate's folded denims and he likes to chew the nest door neighbor's money plant.
Henry is named after Eric Bana's character in the time traveller's wife. Henry has a cat companion I baptized as Claire.

that i would be

2010-05-29T15:50:00.000+08:00

That I would be good even if i did nothing
That I would be good even if i got the thumbs down
That I would be good if I got and stayed sick
That I would be good even if I gained ten pounds

That i would be fine even even if I went bankrupt
That i would be good if I lost my hair and my youth
That i would be great if I was no longer queen
That i would be grand if i was not all knowing

That i would be loved even when i numb myself
That i would be good even when i am overwhelmed
That i would be loved even when i was fuming
That i would be good even if i was clingy

That i would be good even if i lost sanity
That i would be good
Whether with or without you

ramblings.

2010-05-23T02:38:00.002+08:00

1. mabuhay ang leche flan na gawa ni maria . its really really delicious.
2 donald calls me the monologue queen. i talk to him but he sometimes doesnt listen so i end up being the monologue person.
3. nilingkod ko sa front seat padung sa work. late night na mga 10 pm-sih na . na si kuya driver ug kondutkor nagkanta jud sila while namick up pasahero. with all the blending. renz verano. bryan adams. 80s na mga sunday hit . maalinsangan ang panahon.
4 are you still mad that i have the tendency to mother you?
5 someone seems to be really nice to me these days.. i wonder why?
6. putik
7 i will be telling you about henry
8 they showed a rerun of oki doki doc in studio 23 earlier. lunch box office hits yata to . NALINGAW JUD KO to the highest level . i knew the characters by hear. this is one of the tv shows i used to watch during grade school along with home along da riles and abangan ang susunod na kabanata. popsy macunatan is the funniest.
9 i havent slept well. i was supposed to be on "REsT day" mode but ....

new

2010-05-18T15:55:00.002+08:00

don't let it go away this feeling has got to stay.

i am on the process of moving forward. i am pretyy hyped up about how things are . for one i moved into a new place, which is think is an emotionally healthy move for me. i am laughing more.. despite the lack of sleep and i am in a better perspective.

disoriented.

2010-05-13T11:22:00.001+08:00

im a
little bit disoriented v=but i am alright.
i would like to read you who never arrived out LOUD>

ahhh

2010-04-28T11:46:00.002+08:00

SUCH IS THE JOY OF COUPLEDOM.
and i dont mean me. bow.or me being involved.

berting at ur service

2010-04-26T12:10:00.003+08:00

this is berting. he is my neighbor though this is the first time that i ever saw him around the neighborhood. it was a sunny Sunday and i was really hungry after doing my laundry so i decided to go to the next house's burger stand . i ordered pancit canton and burger and coke,and there was this 70-ish man seating a seat away from me . he was talking to the storekeeper...random mumblings. i wasn't really listening to him because my focus was on the food. kadugay pa mubukal sa tubig para sa pancit canton.

when i focused with a 30 % more attention he was actually talking to me . he was asking where my boyfriend was on a Sunday i shouldn't be alone feeding myself. i wanted to tell him 'sir i am an independent person who can manage by myself ' , but of course i did not want to appear rude.

he didn't really feel like the DOM-ish type /dirty old mama/. he introduced himself as bert/berting ( i wouldnt want to mention his last name here because as it turns out he's somewhat related to a political clan in our baranggay). he aptly introduced himself " berting _________ at your service".

he spoke of relationships while i chowed my burger and pancit canton. i offered some but he declined.he said he wasn't hungry.

oh the things that he said..about finding a life partner..he should be caring loving and responsible ,of the current political situation he said there's is no hope for the Philippines because all the politician's place their interest first before the public welfare * and i wonder sir why is there a big orange check sign on your house's gate ..its , mind you, attention-grabbing*, and how if you work in the government you can't help but be corrupt because you yourself are poor and money can be tempting ( he is a lupong-tagapamayapa in our baranggay, so he said). i listened to berting's musings.

he had many stories to tell when he was still an ofw and when during the 1980s dubai was just a plain dessert..

it was a good conversation.

you made it.

2010-04-18T10:45:00.000+08:00

from reading the comms book then going to prc and finding out about the
conditional situation. 77 days . sinulog 2010. come back with calda.
bangsilog.jollibee. why si alberto's so spicy? allejo's havent tried yet. mary's. weekends. sundays morning liek that no doubt song except there are no food fights involve.OF YELLOW... book, how can i ever forget that? hero. 15. songs. i could say so many random things that only you can understand.i am one of the many who's really proud of what you achieved. i can honestly say that you have gained independence on the past months. you were able to conquer things by your own. padayon. CONGRATUALTIONS ENGINEER!

ikaw. ako

2010-04-11T09:09:00.003+08:00

ok ra ka? ako ok ra . i told you .. no i did not . but you were warned that hell hath known no fury like me scorned. you left me half disoriented ..and now i an feel my rage slowly creeping over you. BUT i don't want that to happen. seriously. i don't .

the negativity on this world can be so tiring . and i don't want to look in anger.

nakakapagod ka. alam mo yun? i wish you stop being so unsure of yourself.

happy march

2010-03-26T13:11:00.003+08:00

na iinis ako

2010-03-26T13:06:00.002+08:00

hindi ko alam kung bakit . i saw someone's picture on facebook and i was suddenly upset about it . i don't know why . i feel such an outsider.

today i will make that talk. and though i know it's bad to you i will come because you are the only one that can quench my depressive mode. oh ./

and it's going to carry on

2010-03-25T18:02:00.003+08:00

for a while ..a long while now i have been trying to get a decent post .. but i cannot really think straight. i will be as honest as possible . everything went on a blur mid year of 2009 . it's funny how things change .. and the more unsurprising thing is that you are already suspicious that it might happen . and when it does it knocks off you balance and orientation and it's not so pretty .

on a lighter note i have achieved some long-time pending goals. i am grateful.

and on those difficult times you realize and go further more than what you expected of yourself.

it has been a while . a lot has happened. the good tha bad and the ugly.

and i am going to carry on.

this is not mE

2010-03-06T11:53:00.002+08:00

usually you let people just go about with their business but there are some.. some who are just untolerable.

1.EE - you are really annoying. i wisj you would shut your mouth.your comments are so off.
2. RK- you laugh at the most nonfunny moments. i wish you would stop that. we all have our stupid moments ..but your tops it all off. please stop.
3. SV - fine i get it. no you're not really annoying . how i just hope the air in your head will slowly escape out of your ears so you can shake off the notion that your are the prettiest. you are still a descendant of adam.
4. ZR - you are one hell of a brat. i hate it when you flash off that im-trying-to-be-genuine-but -you're-so-obviously-faking-it smile... stop being so plastic.
5 .SR - you have your annoying moments ..i'd give that one to you.
6. TR - please stop the vanity. you will be sucked in to that mirror. all of that will wear off one day . behind your persona is someone who is also bitter. when you insinuated that i am bitter .. .look who's talking?
7. TN and CK - please .
8. CS - if you ever try to echo my words again... you will not stop from getting all my glares.

this is not me.

UGH

2010-02-27T03:17:00.001+08:00

I am sleepy.Hard earned lesson learned. Thou shall not let pictures remain in memory card less they be corrupted. Why oh why did it happen to me of all people? I can never retrieve those pictures since i never made back up . Or more correctly I did not save it. Lesson learned :Store . and have back up.
** yep haven't been here for a long while.

where are the filipinos?

2009-11-22T21:23:00.000+08:00

Jhen and i watched 2012. It was a great movie. not that I'm a fan 0f end-of-the-world movies. but where are the Filipinos? Wala ta gi save? Darn. It was all first and third world countries, and according to the movie it was thru genetic selection.. more like their check book.

Come to think of it , it was the rich and famous who funded for the making of the modern Noah's ark..
Of humanity and civilization.

It was worth the time. Jhen and I were supposed to watch New Moon ... but ALL SEATS TAKEN mode.. so instead of screaming like 17 year olds.. we decided like the world as we know it is coming to its final 15 28 minutes and 30 seconds.

When Jhen and I headed outside , after the movie finished, we asked " Where are the Filipinos?"

verb and enunciation

2009-11-18T21:38:00.001+08:00

thats what im up to.

500 days of her

2009-11-17T22:17:00.000+08:00

i just watched this movie earlier. there are people like her that we meet in this lifetime. but in this , on this case , though it may be .. or how should is say it , hard-to-understand , i understand her.

*great soundtrack
*love zoeey deschanel rocks and i levitt is a joy to watch on screen..he captures the struggle of the ' boy in love'

500) Days of Summer is a poem to every down and out guy who thinks he's the only one whose ever been dragged through the mill by their own Summer. What undoubtedly ends up making this picture so brilliant is how relatable it is to its victims and victimizers a like. When all is said and done, there is most definitely a lesson to be learned by Tom's experiences. Everyone you meet along the way, whether just passing through or sticking around for awhile, has a purpose. In the end nothing lasts forever, relationships begin, relationships end. Try to be thankful for all the people that broke your heart, they more than likely helped you find yourself in the process …especially you, Summer…bitch. --www.imdb.com

GO WATCH IT~!

vanvan

2009-11-16T20:40:00.001+08:00

pila na lang ka adlaw januaRY na? six weeks. what's six more weeks. its rainy here . i guess it's offly sunny in where you are. yes yes "sa summer ta mamalit"

para sa yo!

2009-11-16T19:17:00.001+08:00

you make us proud manny!

i am.

2009-11-11T18:54:00.001+08:00

i am creepy and sensitive according to esse. thank you.

i made it!

2009-11-03T21:04:00.002+08:00

i would want to make a long post about the past 6 months. whew.

i am glad i made it . i got what i deserved. to those who rooted for me .. THANK YOU!

to the arsonist

2009-10-16T18:36:00.002+08:00

i am alright . thank you for being a follower ( whatever that means ).
hay today i felt tired maybe because it is a Friday . * just because wala absent sya dili ka dapat magluya2*

pardon me while i burst

2009-10-15T19:28:00.000+08:00

i am this =^_^= today . hay. *sigh*
if it means a lot to you. yes it does.

to the girl who cooked her megalate dinner

2009-10-14T19:49:00.003+08:00

no i don't listen to miley . though i think that party in the usa sounds pretty catchy. once lang nako nadungog. that time i sms-ed you that song ' battelfield' was playing on the radio . it sounded like miley though i know that its is jordin's song.

we will be seeing each other soon.

i hope the chorizo went well.

and to K

2009-10-11T23:22:00.001+08:00

im better. smiling and geared up. cramming is the operative word. i will miss you tons.

salamat.

randomness

2009-10-11T23:11:00.002+08:00

i moved to another house. hapit na ang day of judgment. took pictures . i am eager to post them . i love the fact that my classmates ( from different schools) are such camwhores. i love you guys and girls.

i am eager to do a lot of things. sometimes i still get .. ah nevermind.

im in a good state. naga cramming but still fighting. aja!

dear seatmate

2009-10-11T22:43:00.003+08:00

and i don't know how i knew it but i knew it somehow.CHAR! usa ka dakong char. i initally had the impression na.. i don't know.. you are quite .. ah you know how it is when boys are with their "boy friends" .

pero pero ambot ug ngano? when was it? kadtong time na nagtapad ta sa reading sa math. oh wala ta nag tapad exactly.one seat apart. ok man pud diay ka . you're not really that 'standoffish jerk' ..but somehow i still have this funny feeling na jerk ka .

whatever. i admit murag feeling nako naka crush ko nmu . this is so teener.

why do you have to smile that way ? i know you are not even smiling at me.. pero hay pag mu smile ka . kalas lahat ng buto ko. and why do have to be so cool with your curly hair and wicked smile.

i hate myself for asking you so random questions. i feel stupid doing that.

and when i asked you what does this mean " naruruyag ak haim" . you should know better . *wink*

you know you love me xoxo.

in betweeners

2009-10-11T22:01:00.000+08:00

just took the preboard. and can;t find the moonlight ba ito? i should really make an album called the B series. i kept telling my self no. hala pero murag naka crush ang show. i know right? ( kinsa pa naay puruhan mubasa ani nga post? si FS. chocsui , kid A, Weng? . you're one of the 'few' na naay chances na makabasa ani na post)

nadistract mo? ako pirti . and as for now, nakilig ko. wala namang masama. si Persson dili .. or gina ignore akong 'kilig mode'.

he is my seatmate.

too late toon soon

2009-10-02T23:12:00.000+08:00

asa man gud ka ? you were always distracted with some other things michelle . oh michelle ma belle, words could've went well.

1 2 3

2009-10-02T23:05:00.002+08:00

i have nothing decent to blo about . my back hurts . i intend to rant and post something relevant here but the thought(s) got lost.

this is pointless

2009-09-13T20:56:00.002+08:00

how can i bothered by something like this?
isang school year lang naman tayo nagkasama.
pero nung marinig ko ang balita..(which i think is 99.9999% true, like pure glass) i have been restless. i want to hear it straight from you.

why am i even affected by it? because you were such ... i should get over this.

How long can a girl be shackled to you How long before my dignity is reclaimed How long can a girl stay haunted by you Soon Ill grow up and I wont even flinch at your name. note: at your name .. when in fact during the 4 long years of high school the sound of your name has been said every single day .

life is weird. i had too many pit stops and you already ended the race.

nevermind that i will look half stupid and weird.

finding (nemo?)

2009-09-10T17:11:00.000+08:00

lost and insecure ..Just a little late
You found me, you found me .

and i dreamt of you 3 weeks ago. and i tried to find you. but i guess i came in late . dinig sana kita . pero hindi. we could've talked about a lot of thing. things that we would've appreciated both. and i didnt know that you blogged as well.

so this is how it ends?

i will sleep early today. because i will shut my mind .

this is september

2009-09-10T14:55:00.003+08:00

am i that narrative?
here we go , and i thought naa kalse karon . wala diay . and naabot na ko da syudad .. didto pa nako na realize na huwebes diay . naa ko kasabot na classmate.. mga 3 pm pa man so nag klase pa to sya . t5he previous post was supposed to be a joke. funny ba? murag lain nako pagkadeliver.
mga things to do .
1. DL songs for late night sessions
2. kuhaon ang susi . sid
3. ang ref
4. ang math . math .
5. kalaagon ko.
6. saba kaayo diri . and ang mga cdebuano maayo mu iningles. ( naa ko sa net cafe na saba ). muadto na ko kay dili ni maayo . hahahah

sensya na sa post. at dahil dyan...

of triangle

2009-09-10T14:05:00.001+08:00

tanan problem involving triangles masolve.. naa tay sine law ..cosine law ug daghan pa .. except love triangle. especially kung mu apil ang brother in law.

see this pedestal is high and ..

2009-08-29T21:09:00.004+08:00

1. why are you not replying? are you still alright. i miss you. i still have the note i wrote for you . i write to you at random times. remember? yes it was my birthday. you missed it.

2. should take pictures. of us.

3. songs . crying like a church on Monday . so put down you new god and love me like a Sunday again . alanis lots of alanis. flinch. And how long can a girl be haunted by you Soon I'll grow up and I won't even flinch at your name. not the doctor. what do you thank me for? like a virgin . M. wishing i was there . Like a joke that no one gets
Its a life without regret I want to feel that way, forever and ever.

What are you my blood? You touch me like you are my blood you are not even him .

100/4

2009-08-29T19:35:00.003+08:00

and so it was on a monday . prior to that i had luhc care of Kid A * salamat* i just had to include this ' lunch' post because masarap yung meal . and the drinks ( juice po) was damn juicy. ahehhe

wore my new green t shirt. and becauase i am superstitious i ate pancit at chowking... then i think i had memory loss.. oh right i went to EO and for my birthday i got mysekf new glasses. it's technically the same everything , same rims ( hello kitty) but higher 'viewing' powers. haha. because when you're a quarter century old you need a better view of thing. CLEARER.

and gave maria my happy birthday brownies.

dinner-ish in greenwich with nyna ( of course times two . one with nina who was on her way to duty and two greenwich is green ). reaffirming that i like that color.. at eight-ish i found myself being almost through with my villamor book. at bumati naman ang mga inaasahan ko. in the nick of time.
i slept at 1 am . i am happier.

i would love to watch this.

2009-08-15T16:37:00.000+08:00

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=EdZZLdjBfCI

feeling juno

2009-08-15T16:18:00.004+08:00

something like this. minus the 'pakita ug underwear' thing. but maybe. in a non- lewd way . wholesome baya ko. naa kaya koy guts. i hope we can pull it off . maybe Regina will print in 8 x 60 [ sorry mali ang sizing } but a really large print for my quarter a century recollection. YOU KNOW WHO YOU ARE *x0x0 . and i read that you wont do fashion photography unless pig starts to fly . it wont be that way right . it will more like be a portrait.

on a saturday like this.

2009-08-15T14:19:00.002+08:00

benny and the jets by elton john. 27 dresses. relocating in another city . an hour travelk . getting used to it . having her cook. urgh . but i can do the dishes mind you . whilst i type this i realize how much id like someone who wouldn't let go ' nang basta-basta". would like to play the guitar and take pictures. and i want a new hair cut . i should be reading.

frenzel mode

2009-08-06T01:28:00.001+08:00